What Happens Next: A Gallimaufry

melancholic romantic comic cynic. bi & genderqueer. fantasy writer. sysrae on ao3.

You Mean I Get to Participate in an Experiment AND Make a New Friend? Fuck YEAH!

onceuponatmi:

I have agreed to a friendship experiment orchestrated by the delightful bettydays wherein I have been paired with the seemingly brilliant fozmeadows who I happened to already follow but never spoken to. We/I am/are (I’ll stop that now) meant to post answers to the following and tag our new…

AUGH I’m so sorry this reply is late - I only just saw that you tagged me, on account of how I’m a dork who didn’t know where to look for tagged post notifications *hides in shame*. So, I think I’m meant to answer the same questions you did, and then we talk to each other? Something like that? So, here goes:

1. What are you all about right now? This is kind of a complex question. I feel like I’m at something of a crossroads lately, trying to figure out what I want for myself, how to balance all the different aspects of my life, how to be a good person, how to succeed as a writer, so in that sense, I’m all about self-analysis with a side order of doubt. But in more practical, cheerful terms, I’m currently all about fanfiction, which I’ve recently plunged back into for the first time since I was a teenager. As such, I’ve been writing a bunch of Destiel slash on AO3, which is both challenging and immensely relaxing for some reason, and is therefore playing an unexpectedly integral role in keeping me sane amidst all the existential angst. Fandom FTW! 

2. What’s your greatest accomplishment in life, and what are you working toward next? I feel like there’s some sort of implied rule that I’m meant to claim motherhood as my greatest accomplishment nowadays, but fuck that, because it isn’t. I mean, it’s still an important, incredible thing that’s happened to me, but calling it an accomplishment implies that it’s a finished endeavour instead of an ongoing part of my life, and in any case, I hate the idea of being defined foremost as a parent. That being said, I don’t really know how to answer this one, either. Is my existential uncertainty coming across yet? Um. I kinda want to say being a published author, and that what I’m working towards next is getting my next book out, and those are both true things, but… I don’t know. I guess I feel like my greatest accomplishment, whatever it ends up being, is a thing I haven’t done yet, and that the thing I’m working towards next is maybe figuring out what it is.

3. What makes you happiest? Simple stuff, mainly. Writing a story that’s in me like music. Sleeping in and waking up at my leisure. Watching a good film with my husband. Reading curled up in a blanket nest with a mug of hot chocolate, listening to the rain. Sunbasking in summer. Parties with friends, the kind where we all get mellowdrunk and sing karaoke and hug on each other and tell honest, dumbass stories about ourselves. Reading to my son. Exploring a new place. Lingering in bookshops. Talking about stories. That sort of thing.     

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    AUGH I’m so sorry this reply is late - I only just saw that you tagged me, on account of how I’m a dork who didn’t know...
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